Love is a weakness...

...most of the times, I believe. This is one facet of love I guess, when you who are otherwise a person with pride and ego become shameless and weak and crave for the slightest attention that you get from your love. Is that how it is meant to be?
It gets worse when your love really doesn't care as much for you. Then each little bit of a gesture is like a chicken piece thrown to a hungry soul. As pathetic as I may sound, I am sure there will be some who know what I am saying and would probably share the same sentiments.

So, you ask yourself, 'do I have to be this desperate soul and crave for the love like this for an entire lifetime? I might as well just leave it all behind me and clear my heart of any emotions for the person and make a fresh new start.' But that's not happening and that's the sad but true part about the whole thing. You cannot get the person out of your system, try as much as you will.

hmmm such is one face of love.

And you thought it was the end...

I can hear me breathing,
I am what you are seeing.
Walking on my own road,
It's me and it's my life I'm living.

Come along,
only if you can walk beside me.
Your words and my silence,
Did not mean the end of me.

What you seek is a dream,
And I am real.
I don't need you to lick my wounds,
'Cause I can heal.

Missed my wake up call once,
But not this time.
Shining on my own now,
I'm done waiting for the Sunshine.

I can hear me breathing,
I am what you are seeing.
What you thought was my end,
Was in fact a new beginning.

-Shruti Nori

Why are we celebrating 'Slumdog'?

At the onset I would like to say that the only thing I celebrate about the movie is our own Rehman's music and the performance of the kids, they were adorable.

Other than that I think the movie is only a mockery of India and the worst part is we are celebrating it. The entire movie is a collection of all the bad aspects of our country, which I am sure exists in other parts of the World too but you don't have movies made of them with such exclusivity and hype.

The movie basically calls India a slum dog, where you can get rich either by becoming a serial killer or by accident. The entire time there is nothing good shown about us. I KNOW, and WE ALL KNOW India is not ONLY about kids living in slums growing up to be prostitutes and killers or chai wallahs or a large group of cheap labor in call centers. Nothing good is shown in the entire movie even in glimpses. Whats more, to give totality to the mockery the 'quiz master' only mocks the protagonist's profession, the call center professionals and also his possibility of knowing the answers and finally shows that the man got his last question right only out of sheer luck.

This movie, my friends, is not just about Jamal, its a only a sham. The real intention of the maker of this movie is to jeer at us, calling our country a slum dog that is becoming a millionaire only by accident and we are allowing it.

I am extremely angered by this kind humiliating portrayal of India.

Time for Movies

Priceless- That's the french light comedy I watched today, and you bet, I am very glad I did so. The film was a close to two hours of hassle free, light and neat at the same time engaging entertainment.

If you ask me what it is about, the theme definitely does not fall into the 'neat' category. Its about a young girl selling companionship and sexual favors to her rich and elderly benefactors in exchange for luxurious lifestyle. Our protagonist is a lovable bartender who cannot keep himself from falling in love with her even though he knows she has no interest what so ever in him after knowing that he is not dipped in money.

The situations are soft and delightful and both the characters are extremely lovable and make it all look very nice and natural. The cast did complete justice to the characters to say the least.

For myself I can say, one more day put to good use.:) .. au revoir!

Emotions and its descendants

The quest for the reason behind unhappiness and the pursuit of happiness have always been there, at least in my mind's world its been lingering for a while...There have been these days of and on when I look for a hand, a shoulder, a gesture and the sight of none throws me into a say of feeling low..and wanted it to end

It all began when on a particular day last week when I voiced my depression in the form of a status message on Google Talk..it went some what like this..'Emotions..such a waste of time'...to that my dearest pal and also my first cousin wanted to know where that anger along with sadness was coming from.

I just told her heart ache is a direct descendant of emotions...why give way to emotions so strong that you let yourself get sucked into relationships...and with each relationship we develop expectations which in turn only lead to disappointments and eventually there is heart ache and pain...My question, is all this necessary?..to which she says..'all this is necessary, emotions are what make us human. The ability to feel is what makes us special and more 'in touch' than the so called 'detached' people. I felt better but was not completely convinced as that did not solve my problem of unhappiness.

Again later during the day another good friend of mine responded to my status and what he said made total sense, he said, 'the problem does not arise until you begin to expect', ' emotions are needed, relationships and love oxygen, but what is definitely causing the pain is expectations. Just quit expecting and that very moment you will experience contentment.

He gave me the answer I was looking for, and I put it to test today and it worked. As a matter of habit, I expected certain gestures from the one I loved, but when I did not get it, I just calmed myself inside and told myself, love needs to be unconditional and emotions should be only 'giving' rather than 'wanting or needing'...and what I was left with was a content smile from within..no negative thoughts and no ill feelings...only love..just love and joy..

I don't know if I made any sense in this post ...but it was a moment of triumph for me ...I had just won over sadness..and let the smile live on..and I wanted to share

A 'Break' in every sense of the word!

I Know its a not so pleasant image to begin the year with but you will know its not all that bad a thing for me by the end of this post:P
Let me first, Wish you all a Very Happy New Year..Do accept my wishes cause the year is only 8 days old ..so I am not very late:)...

So if you can call this a 'break' that I was waiting for, for a long time now, because all I am doing now is resting, reading books and watching movies that I have been waiting to, and could never do because of the my totally occupied days till ten days back or if you call this a 'break' because i actually broke a bone...the result is the same;)...food is being brought to my bed three times a day, coffee whenever I wish for it and kids, kitchen and home taken care of by a team of four...so now do I see many of you wishing for a broken bone;) ?..

I have been wanting to tell you how much I am enjoying this ever since it all began but was waiting to get this picture of my foot cause all this I am writing would not be soo effective without the image...

The one and only regret in this entire 'breaking' affair is the fact that I had to stay put at home on the new years eve...but that totally fine with me I realized considering what luxury the fracture is gifting me in return..

For now I shall sign off and get back to my resting mode cause I wish to thoroughly enjoy every minute while it lasts;) Doc says only a couple of weeks and I am good to move..:((...;)