..there have been so many blasts and attacks and every time I thanked God that my loved ones are safe..and tried to not let the tragedies affect me so much ....but I am not able to do that any more...not this time...i am not able to get over the fear seeing whats happening in mumbai,its kind of gotten into my system...I was watching the news..have been doing that all day...the fear and the anxiety is overwhelming...its a kind of sinking feeling...a kind of helplessness, a point of no escape... its a kind of throbbing right from the throat to the stomach.
A couple of months back I used to look at every second vehicle and every other person on the road with a fear, 'what if he is here to kill?'...then my everyone said I was being paranoid and was over reacting and thats what i rightly told myself...that I am over reacting and slowly got over it...but now when I see whats happening in mumbai...as my friend rightly put it, "these guys were just like your average next door chaps, dressed in cargos and t shirts" and i was like, exactly ,thats what is so scary...
In the past one month a couple of unnatural deaths of people I know have already left me shaken, both suicides, and I thought, why has it become so easy to take a life even if its our own...it shouldn't be this easy ..this simple...life is too precious...and loss of so many lives today kind of increased this unrest in me by volumes...
I will and I can only pray..pray that life should not be so short lived..and pray each and every one realizes how precious and how big a deal life is and that its not fair that a rope or a bomb end it in a second...I will pray that we may not have to witness this kind of a day again....and will probably come out of this anxiety in due time...but for all of them who have lost their loved ones unnaturally I pray God give them immense strength...I will pray..
