I set me free

In the war against the world

You strive to keep your smile.

It's still a war in the end,

And many a time you only cry.

Don't be ashamed of tears

'cause they only remind you that you bleed.

And as for all the fears,

They tie you until you are freed.

In the journey, 

From 'you set me free' to 'I set me free',

Its the tears that blur your vision,

But the eyes that shed them will help you see.

It's still a war in the end,

It will set you free, you'll see.- Me

The heart holds many a memory....

I was probably nine, we were in Shahjahanpur, UP. I don't remember if I watched the movie or just heard this song. We did not have a radio or a television back then, so it is not possible that I had heard it too many times. I do remember that the song appealed to me very much and I used to sing it, obviously not knowing the correct words. I remember I used to sing it as 'mihale masti mukundaranjish'.:)

Soon the song was forgotten. Years passed, twenty eight of them, to be precise. Then out of the blue I find this song in the list on youtube, while I am looking for some other old hindi song. I behave like a child who just found a favorite toy that he/she had lost long ago.

I start humming it and sing it all exactly as I remember it from then. I was so surprised and weirdly amazed for those few minutes. Not because I remember the words after all these years, but just the thought of how a nine year old treasures her memories with such care. I know we have memories from our childhood but a few are kept so intact even without any dusting for years together, its quite amazing.

I listen to it on repeat many times, and once again forget about it. A few days pass, may be twenty eight of them again, and I am browsing through a few blogs and this song shows up in a comment below a post.

And now I like this feeling of, 'wow this song is really very close to my heart, it keeps coming back to me' :))) 

Rising from the dead, if you please....

            So, I have not stopped writing and I cannot thank myself enough for that. Just that I have not been blogging. Apart from writing for passion and pleasure, here and there, blame that disease called Facebook for keeping me away from sensible blogging.:)
         
            I will not say I am cured of Facebook (honesty anyone?:) but something I did today made me realize and reminded me of how fulfilling and satisfying blogging is. I clicked on Blogger after more than three years today when husband dear wanted me to create his blog. Once I did that I entered, what was 'my' space/friend/listener, a few years ago, my blog, this very one, Pure Smile, with a :).

            Reading my old posts was like taking a walk in my mind from back then, all those years ago, when my thoughts and words reflected my situations and my world then. The experience was quaint and also absorbing. What a beautiful place it was and how did I manage to abandon it, just like that?

            So here I am, I have come alive, for myself mostly. Much has transpired in these years that have passed since my last post. Many thoughts to share with you my friend. Once again be my mirror and show me my truth, my lie, my strength, my failing, my scar, my sparkle and my smile.

            For a bit, I contemplated changing the title of the blog, 'cause I know, I know, Pure Smile with a :) is kinda juvenile....but in all honesty I am still the same ..:)..see what I mean?

             So nothing changes while a lot has changed and aren't we all here to celebrate it all?